It’s been five years since I heard the devastating news—you have incurable cancer. While I certainly wouldn’t want to repeat all the surgeries and treatments endured over the years, nor do I rejoice in suffering through current and future treatments, I am oh so thankful for the many treasures I’ve received in the midst of darkness. Just as unearthed diamonds are a result of time, heat and pressure, so have precious gems appeared in my life through the darkness of cancer.
August 30, 2011
Time is a funny thing.
My mom wrote the above paragraph five years after being diagnosed with fourth stage rectal cancer. Two years later she was on hospice and died on September 5th.
It’s now been five years since my mother’s passing…
Five years since she’s been out of pain.
Five years since I’ve had to live with the pain of missing her.
Five years that she’s seen Jesus face to face.
Five years that I’ve clung to Jesus in the midst of my grief.
Five years that she’s been reunited with the saints.
Five years I’m awaiting our reunion.
My family has been broken for five years. This side of heaven, everyone is broken. I need Christ today, yesterday and tomorrow. In Him alone my hope is found. Because of Christ, I know I will see my mom again. I don’t know if it will be in five or fifty years. Either way, I know the Lord will carry me through. Beauty will come from ashes and He will give me treasures in the darkness.
“I will give you the treasures of darkness and the hoards in secret places, that you may know that it is I, the LORD, the God of Israel, who call you by your name” (Isaiah 45:3).