This Valentine’s Day I am thinking about my grandma.
Before I left for college, Gammy gave me a bunch of small items to take with me, one of which was a heart-shaped button. She said it was so I could take her love with me. Every time I look at it, I think of her and am reminded I will always have her love.
It’s been over a month now that she’s been gone (she passed away at the beginning of the year). February was her birthday month, but that is not the only reason I am thinking about her today.
For my first Valentine’s Day with my now boyfriend, my grandma was outside walking her little dog when he came over. As he walked past her, my grandma yelled loudly at the dog, “Go pee!” then noticed my boyfriend. She later told me, “I hope he didn’t think I was yelling at him, I must of sounded crazy!”
I still can’t believe she is gone, I don’t think I’ve quite processed her death yet, it happened so quickly. When I was told she had passed, the first thing I wanted to do was tell my mom. We experience multiple losses during our lives, but we only truly experience that first initial loss. Every loss after that is just a reminder. So that’s why the first thing I thought of was my mom.
Through it all, I was touched by my grandpa’s love for his wife. While I was home on break, I thanked my grandpa for all the care he had given Grammy through her cancer treatment and hospice. “Of course!” he said. To him, there was no reason why he wouldn’t be the one to take care of her. That’s what we do — we care for the ones we love.
Love is a funny thing. As my Grandpy put it, “When you love someone…you may not always like them, but you will always love them.” That is why love is so powerful, love doesn’t die.
I don’t want the commercial-cheesy-cupid-on-a-card kind of love, not even a honeymoon kind of love. I want a love that lasts from the wedding night till the deathbed. Love that commits. Love that is caring. Love that puts up with your crap. A love that says “Ta ta and I love you!” every time before parting ways. A love that hopes to die first so that their loved one doesn’t have to be the one left alone. A lifetime kind of love, that’s the kind of love I want.
That’s the kind of love we have in Christ. He will love us forever no matter what and will see us through till the end. But His love doesn’t end at death, His love is with us always.